Freeeeeeee atlast

School is over and I feel so free. I want to run around in circles but I shall not, save myself some dignity. My first year went by super fast and I hope the rest go by as fast and I finish and then I can throw my hat up in the air. As for now, I’m off for ten days; I’ll miss blogging because I’ve become lifeless blogging paragraphs of thoughts daily. Oh well, I’m off to a better place. *dies and flies off with the angels to heavens*

someone somewhere

Someone somewhere is always going through something terrible, feeling worse, something harder, something painful then yourself. Remember that!

shelf me

So some people really wanted to see my closet(s). So here you go, but I must warn you that they are nothing special. Just an average closet....

These two closets are an actual possibility. I was looking into stuff for my closet because my closet door was taken off for carpet and now it can’t be put on for some unreasonable reason. Anyways, I was looking at stuff from a company called “Closetmaid” and they have these shelves sold separate and they’re very easy to fix into the closet and quite affordable. But first, I need to clean my closet! I actually

enjoy organizing my closet and shelves.

This is what needs to be done with closets!
1) Only keep things that are needed and wearable. It’s hard because no one likes getting rid of things for no real reason. But the less junk in the closet, the easier to find things and more space for other things.
2) Organize closet according to needs. Put long dresses on one so they’re out of the way and not getting damaged. Organizing shoes is the best ever, instead of just throwing them somewhere. When they are organized and displayed nicely, they will be worn.
3) This doesn’t work for everyone but I like to colour coordinate my clothes. For people who need to dress up on daily basis can easily go through their colours and dress according to that. It can also be coordinated with warm and cold colours or the weight.
4) A closet that smells nice makes the clothes smile. (Okay this one is a lie) but one of those air fresheners in the closet really does feel so good.

Keeping closet clean and organized makes life easy, but to maintain it that way is hard.

Hope for the best, prepare for the worst

I have had this conversation with countless people, countless times.

There are several people who are far-off from reality, not because they’re stupid or don’t know any better but because they like to believe in unrealistic scenarios, which turns into their expectations from life. I am a girl, so I can speak on behalf of girls. Some girls have a representation in their mind about their future. Assuming it’s going to be like a (along the lines of) fairytale, and that they are going to be successful, and have amazing friends who they will take world tours with and spend hot summers with and trust each other with their lives with, and be married to the most handsome, caring, loving, smartest man for them who will treat her like a queen who sparkles. For some people, it works out that way and that’s great. But most of the times, that’s not how life goes, there are struggles and hardships with almost everything you do. Nothing comes easy and it’s good to remember that

It’s not to say that we shouldn’t have expectations. Low expectations don’t take people very far either. Some people really do work hard and deserve the best, but it’s good to have a reality check and know where you stand in life. Look at yourself, your personality, your beliefs, culture, religion, family. Breaking away from all that isn’t always a negative thing, especially if it’s going towards a better change but it will most likely never be easy. I’ve found that when I have realistic hopes, they are easy to live with and the situation it self feels reassuring. It’s good to desire the better, but when we’re aware of the reality of it, it leaves us feeling content weather it happens or not.

Some hopes are unrealistic and the only person you’re fooling is your self. If I was to go on and on about this topic, I would but I would only be repeating my message several times just in different words. Haha!

oh bob!

"Until the philosophy which holds one race superior and another inferior is finally and permanently discredited and abandoned, everywhere is war and until there are no longer first-class and second-class citizens of any nation, until the color of a man's skin is of no more significance than the color of his eyes. And until the basic human rights are equally guaranteed to all without regard to race, there is war. And until that day, the dream of lasting peace, world citizenship, rule of international morality, will remain but a fleeting illusion to be pursued, but never attained... now everywhere is war." - Bob Marley

easy peezy lemon squeezy

It’s simple to not feel then it is to feel. It’s easy to stay angry at someone for a long time because it involves fewer feelings rather then to be hurt and affecting. It’s easier to settle with someone and fight once in awhile then it is to stay away and miss them everyday. It’s easy to be surrounded and feel loved then to stay away and in wait for return. It’s easy to cry whenever rather then hold in the tears.

I know it doesn't make much sense.

Rather not be loved at all.

How dense is it to think that you’ve accomplished something great by being loved by someone else, rather then not being loved at all. Well guess what, they may have never been loved but they haven’t caused themselves harm by heartbreaks and everything else that comes with this relationship rollercoaster!

On the side note, its exam time and everyone is studying insanely. What is wrong with me? Why am I not studying insanely and only studying a day before exam? If I was a mastermind intelligent whiz student that could be my excuse but sadly I am not. Maybe I’ll learn my lesson once I get my grades. I just can’t sit there and study likes a maniac. I’ll dedicate one day to study one thing and focus on it, but I can’t study one subject for a week. I haven’t tried it, but I assume my brain would collapse

Good day

"ask me anything"

check it out

http://www.cbc.ca/video/#/News/TV_Shows/Connect_with_Mark_Kelley/ID=1334576983

Green apples are good but God is great

For anyone who feels that they are being watched. They are very careful with their every move because they are afraid to take a wrong one simply because they are being watched. Others who believe that they are not being watched fear nothing, they can do what they like and how they like it because they are not afraid of anything or anyone. What they do is within themselves.

All that shan-nan-a-gin advice

Babies on my mind!

The last push and the first cry,
A new beginning with a mothers sigh.
I stood nervous, scared and awed in surprise,
While looking into those tiny eyes.
Ten fingers and ten toes,
I tried to put on them baby clothes.
A sharp cry and a dreamy smile,
After all the pain a baby is worthwhile.
Early morning assessments and documentation,
Knowledge from research and its application.
Comfort measures and health teaching,
My role as a student nurse is far reaching.
A bundle wrapped with joy and hope,
For a future set out of scope.
These little lives are a miracle indeed,
I hope they all grow up to succeed.

-Ishrat Khan

I'm not reading no ugly covered book!!

This may sound like “don’t judge a book by its cover” but that’s not what I mean because I always judge books by their covers. This is about people because we'll notice the good in people long before you notice the evil. Perhaps that's because we put our best qualities on display, and conceal the worst ones as best as we can. Very few people are going to flaunt their anger, bitterness, hatred or animosity. Still, sometimes there are triggers or something that lower the curtain and expose our baser selves. Occasionally a chance occurrence will reveal the ugly side of what seemed to be a beautiful person. It’s natural for us to give credit onto such cosmetic perfection and assume what the person is the way they look. It’s like when we see a really fresh and attractive fruit; we automatically assume that it must taste as good. As I meet new people and as I look back at people from the past I notice that interior of people is like day and night, right and wrong, good and evil.
The day I changed my interior, I realized what interior really meant for other people.

In need of some self control

I am obsessed (literally). This wedding is absoluty amazing
her mehndi dress
her wedding dress
her reception dress
her hair style
her make up
her husband’s clothes
the decoration

They have about 10 videos of their wedding on youtubes and I lie not, I have seen them all and let’s just say I have seen them more then once!

There is other ways to impress boys when your 11

I am a part-time student-teacher at an elementary school. Few days a go I saw a 11 year old girl wearing a spaghetti strap tank top, black boxer shorts, intense make up, huge earrings and to make things a little bit more edgier, she had her top lifted so we could see her belly button ring. She’s 11 years old, isn’t there some sort of dress code policy in schools or something. I know when I was in elementary school, the rule was: the strap of your shirt had to be three figures wide, your shorts had to be at knee length and I’m not that old that these rules would be considered ancient.

This is why I’m scared to have children

M A C . B L A C K

Aqsa Pervais

For few years now, people are constantly attacking the issue of Aqsa Pervais being killed by her father and hijab or islam is to blame. I saw the following online on youtube, it was made for Aqsa Pervais by one of her friends. This is what was said:

“a few days ago, a Muslim girl was killed from her father for not wearing her hijab, after this turned into a big story, Muslims are jumping at the defense of Islam. Women are saying hijab gives us freedom. Really does it? Tell that to Aqsa, oh wait, you cant because she was killed for not wearing it. If your one of those Muslims who believes that hijab gives you freedom, I don’t blame you because you’ve been brought up to believe this. But let’s be honest for a moment, maybe the hijab means freedom for you but for many people it doesn’t. For aqsa the hijab was oppression, so the hijab is a symbol of oppression. Maybe there are two Islam’s, one is about oppression and other is about peace. If you say Islam is about freedom, why don’t you prove it, just take off your hijab, because action speak louder then words and words without action are shallow, you can tell me it’s about freedom but if you can’t take it off that proves to me that your wrong. Make a ten second video, tell me I believe that hijab is freedom and take it off. You probably won’t do it because you are afraid and that is not freedom. All you have to do is, take off your hijab for 10 seconds to prove that hijab is freedom for you. If you do this, I will respect you and other people will respect you”

My first reaction when I heard was condescending. People who have something as strong as “take your hijab off” have some sort of point, some type of research, something that I didn’t see. Infact, she has pretty much made an assumption that any women that wear hijab are obviously ignorant, quote “I don’t blame you, and you’ve been brought up to believe this”. So Muslim woman have been brought up to believe this, therefore we are ignorant? Yeah that is definitely condescending. Another thing I strongly disagree with “if you say Islam is really about freedom, why don’t you prove it? Actions speak louder then words and words without action are shallow” first of all, your issue is not about Islam, it is about the practice of covering, which is an aspect of hijab, which not even all muslim woman practice. If you are trying to attack islam, then do so directly, don’t screw around the issue by attacking hijab. Also, this quote again shows your ignorance, shows your lack of research “take off your hijab to prove it”. Even if there are woman who agree with you and understand you, they are still not going to take off their hijab for ten seconds and say whatever it is that you’ve asked them to say. For our beliefs we don’t want to be seen by strange men, because we as Muslim woman consider our own body to be precious. Now if you disagree with someone loving their body in this way, then I’d be more concern with your state of mind, rather then anyone else’s. You also said “if you take your hijab off, I will support you and I will respect you” this is very nice of you to do to a certain extent but technically this is what you’re saying “I will support you, and I will respect you if you take off your scarf and agree with my interpretation of Islam”. That’s hypercritical because you talk about freedom but you don’t respect their freedom to choose. You don’t outright say it, but you basically saying that Islam in its entirety is an oppressive force where woman choose to wear the scarf. I’m not saying that there aren’t woman who aren’t forced to wear it because there are but your attacking all woman who wear it by basically saying “you can’t think for yourself”. In my opinion they don’t have to take off their scarf to show support for Aqsa, them saying so is enough, them talking about trying to prevent such situation from reoccurring is enough. Wearing the hijab is a personal choice; it has to do with our choices, our beliefs and religion. Our feeling of connection with our religion.
Before anyone thinks that I’m siding with what Aqsa’s father did, I’m not obviously. But I do not think that Islam is to blame, I believe that anyone is violent and has any grain of intelligence will find anything to use as an excuse. In this case, her father could have been an abusive man who used Islam as an excuse to be violent and abusive. Islam is not inherently violent. Islam is trying to maintain peace, not give people an excuse to abuse others. With that in mind, you should consider that there are other religions and other cultures that people use as an excuse to abuse others. In the olden days, people tried to use science instead of religion as an excuse to oppress blacks. So I don’t think it has anything to do with religion, it’s an excuse for people to use to be mean to others. So here is a suggestion, look into woman’s rights in Islam and in addition to that, read the Quran, not just the copy online but get an actual copy of it and read it, make notes and try to understand it, I’m not trying to say “convert” but try to understand it and read at least one autobiography of prophet Mohammed (s.a.w). Other then that, speak to Muslim woman, ask them how they feel about it instead of asking and reading what hijab is about online.

Other then that, hijab is supposed to modesty. Hijab doesn’t just mean a fabric on your head, so when someone is to say “I observe hijab” that doesn’t mean they cover their head which is what makes them a hijabi. You simply cover because of your certain beliefs but we wear the hijab to save ourselves from the wrong. Wearing a hijab and having friends of the opposite sex and having a boyfriend in your arm does not define hijab. Hijab is just a way of helping to stay modest and to help it prevent from sin.

life rhymes with wife. wife rhymes with knife.

Its okay.

Its okay to want someone you can't have.'

Its okay to keep friendships when you dont want them,or want something more.

Its okay to cry when you're hurt,

and its okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you.

Believe it or not, its always gonna be okay.

Thats just how it works.

Sometimes, things dont always work out the way you want them to

and a lot of times it seems like they never will.

But its okay, thats how lifes suppose to go.

Its all about learning how to deal with the bumpy parts in the road

and waiting til they're smooth again.

Its all about forgiving and forgetting.

Its all about waiting and wishing.

Thats just how life is.

-Not mine

broke

For years now, we’ve been trying to discover a cure for poverty but it is a never ending progression due to unemployment, low wages, lack of education, unprepared parenthood, racial discrimination, divorce, being a single parent, chronic illness or disability and tons of other reasons. I perceive poverty and I see some of us have it all and some have nothing. I realize that it’s unfair but that’s how the world goes round. Views of people looking for cures for poverty, here is something to think about….
Who is Jim carry or Britney spears? He’s funny and she can sing and they make millions of dollars for repute in front of the camera. Oprah Winfrey allegedly takes home the paltry annual salary of $145 million dollars. That’s almost $580,000 a day (I used a calculator) - more than most of us could ever hope to make over the course of our working lives! Celebrities are paid far too much money for acting. All the people famished in the world are dying with no money and they are paid as much as a hard working sellers year salary in a day. I know that will most likely never change. People who do simple tasks like singing and performing will always make more money because they have a reputation and they are paid for that status. I believe that doctors, engineers and so forth, deserve their money and respect because they work hard and they aren’t being paid to show their faces in places to be paid per second.
As for people who obtain movie stars and athletes as their role models, please do some research and think about your beliefs and values. Decide what you consider a respectable person. If you think going to jail, doing drugs, affairs etc is cool then you’re at the right place. I don’t honestly believe that celebrities do charities because they feel like going out to people, but rather because it makes them more popular. Ofcourse I can’t be sure of what their intention is, except that there is no reason to make such a big deal of giving out a charity. It makes me irritated that we look up to people who can do anything possible because of the money and support they have. I understand that they have to live a hard life too, and they have to be away from home and to live a life in public eye and I’m sure it’s not an easy career either, but that is their personal choice.
I realize that the reason for poverty isn’t this particularly, but it upsets me to know that people like that have it all and are living a life worth million of dollars and on the other side a man works all day building a house and is living in a mud hole wondering if he’ll be able to bring bread home tomorrow.

WOOOOOZ

tick tick

You don't grasp how fast time is going by until you watch a baby grow from day one to one month, one month to two month and so on. The way they change so dramatically over such a short period of time, their growing hands and feet, body size, their vocabulary expands, their face changes and it’s hard to believe that this baby was just born few days back. We don't realize it because we are not seeing changes within our selves; our bodies aren’t changing as dramatically. Technically speaking, they are...we just doesn’t notice. Time is running, and we’re physically slowing down as it goes. Time is a blessing' and no blessing should be wasted, we aren't taking full advantage of this time to fulfill the purpose of life, because the clock is keep ticking. Time waits for no one

Puppy Love

I have a tremendous fright of Dogs. People don’t understand how bad it is, they presume it’s one of those “ew dogs!” fears. When I see a dog, all I can picture is that dog attacking me. I can’t stroll past a dog, even if it is on its leash so I take the initiative to walk across the other side of the road. Sometimes when I have no alternative or no where to go, I have to pretend as if I was going else where and I turn around and start walking back casually following by me almost running until I lose my breath.
When I have no other choice what so ever but to be around a Dog, I have to let their owner know that I am afraid of dogs and if they could sympathetically hold on to them for my sake. Some people are understanding about it, others not so much. People get offended that I am treating their pet as a monster, as I can see it on their faces, and some people insist I pet their dog to see how friendly he/she really is. If I had a dollar for every time I heard “Roxy wouldn’t hurt a fly, she is so friendly, aren’t you roxy, aren’t you, huh girl” following by rubbing their faces with their dogs or “Snoopy is just a puppy, aren’t you snoopy, aren’t you boy, aww googaga”. I would honestly have five dollars by now!
Dogs can sense fear, and I am a walking machine to aggravate dogs. They can sense my fear and they start barking and running after me. I wouldn’t be surprised if I saw a video of myself on YouTube under the name of “girl scared of dog” where I screech and cry like an idiot. If I’m lucky maybe I’ll end up on those America’s funniest home video where I win money while people laugh at me running like a moron. I am trying to determine why I’m so afraid of dogs, and working on losing that fear (that goal is under in improvement because yesterday I walked past a dog with a smile)

So many goals, such little time

Life goes on.

I feel bad when people have to lose their love ones. Weather its by choice or not, it’s painful. For losing someone to death, I guess I can’t really understand the pain of losing a child, or parent. Whoever has gone through a loss I understand, I really do! And I know not to say it will get better because in some ways it really doesn't. Except in the way you can laugh at the best parts of that times spent and love all over again. It doesn’t make it any easier but that won't be apparent until later as to why.

One of my close friends passed away about four years ago, and for a long time I felt awkward waking up in the morning knowing that she isn’t here anymore. Death is hard to get over because it won’t somehow get better. Fact remains, that person is never going to return, and most likely no other person will take their spot in your life. Over time people heal and learn to live without the people who are gone. That sting of pain fades away and we learn to enjoy the moment that we spent with that individual instead of grieving over them. I can’t imagine how people feel when they lose a best friend, a family member; my heart goes out to them.

As for losing someone you feel that you love. No one can define love because everyone has their own meanings and throughout life those meanings change for us. To get past something like that can be the hardest, especially when your heart doesn’t want to, or if it’s not by choice. There is no solitary easy answer for getting past someone you love or may feel that you love. Regardless of the direction you take, you are going to realize that getting over someone you love is not going to happen quickly, nor is there a secret remedy or magic to help you do this. Even as the months, even years go by, this person will, to some level (depending on the level of emotion you felt); there will always be a constant reminder of the life you spent together. The more intense the emotions felt during the relationship, the more intense will be the pain and sadness felt.

I believe that people feel the same way when losing a friend but it just doesn’t go to that degree. It’s not as common because friendship doesn’t end, it just fades away. If it does end, it ends in a disagreement, so it can be mutual I suppose.

During the time, it feels as if you are the only person who suffers that way because no one could possibly feel as worst. While we can all agree that this sort of pain is way too common. Eventually people begin to realize that it was only the loss that caused the pain. The feeling of having suffered a loss is at all times a painful experience, but more intense in its early days. In time this pain will fade away. But the time of feeling that pain is the most terrible time possible; It’s odd how people get through it and become happy again. How does one feel like life is coming to an end. That instant of pain is greater then all pains in existence. It’s said that God never gives you something which you cannot handle, which proves that life does go on.