One more time.

Nothing is in our command, we have choices, we have hopes and we have decisions and sometimes we lose control over our destination. When things don’t work out as planed, we think “why me” and in our philosophy and judgment, it just doesn’t feel fair. When we desire something or someone, which is all we want and when we don’t get it we believe that we missed out on one of the finest in life. Other times when something happens out of no where, we wonder why something so appalling happened to us and we always thinks of better things that should/could of happened but didn’t.
Sometimes, times later we gaze back and reflect back at those old bitter moments and realize that it wasn’t so bad. Somehow it fit into the story of our lives and maybe even for the better. God always has better plans for us and He directs us towards that way by us doing the right thing, and to choose the right path because we already know and sometimes even if that doesn’t work out, then the picture is much bigger then our diminutive imagination. Truthfully speaking, we know the line between the rights and the wrongs, we don’t even have to seek advice before doing so because only if we ask our selves, we’ll know and that is when we make the choice of doing what’s accurate or disobeying ourselves and God and following our pleasures just to fall flat on our face eventually.
 
 
 

South Africa

Exactly 3 months later, I say hello from the jungles of South Africa.

8 days left

At this point, I feel nothing. Crazy isn't it?

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I’m a bad blogger but my laptop is gone for repairs – AGAIN! Except this time it’s taking 10 years longer than last time (a month longer to be precise). Lately, I feel so out of place. Everything is so hectic but alhumdulillah I am more towards the calm side now rather than a month ago.
Ah I just want this over with. 25 more days!

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep in

I thought I would get tired of sleeping in everyday and doing nothing at home........but I was wrong. I love sleeping at 3 AM and waking up at 12-1 PM and doing nothing productive with my day. I wake up, spend an hour in the bathroom staring at myself in the mirrior while I pick at face.

Ah, obviously this won't last forever... few more days then I'll have to get into some sort of a routine and do something with my life.

Goodnight

You know that feeling of relief you get when you have this huge heavy rock tied up to your back and you have no choice but to walk around with it on, till one day you just return that rock back to its owner.


Well I’ve never felt anything like it, (literally). Nonetheless I do feel very relieved and happy to accomplish my goal. I don’t mean to brag, but money has always just slithered in when I’ve needed it most (thank God for that x100) I don’t give money such a high importance in my life, or maybe I don’t know the value of money at this age. Either way, money is money – today it’s here tomorrow it’s gone. Don’t let it control your life

Anyways I’m off to sleep. I don’t know the point of this post

The truth is, I am bored. I am very, very, very bored. In fact, I am so bored, I am running out of ways to format my typing to convey exactly how bored I am.

School is over and I is glad!

I had my bridal shower right after exams. It was a lot of work, which is why my friends and I have decided to never have one again!! Everything looked so good and adorable thought

This semester had to be one of the worst ones yet but I feel like I did well, but I'm still waiting for my marks. Now that it's May and less then 80 days away from the big day. I am getting wee-bit nervous because I'm afraid of things not getting done in time. But so far so good, especially now that I have things in my hand. My clothes came and each one is prettier than ever. I usually am not a big fan of the clothes people send for me from Pakistan, but this time everything is according to the way I asked. I love my cousin for going through hell for my clothes just for me!!
Invites are also here and they are UGLY but that’s my fault for allowing my dear old man to choose them. I am trying to stay positive and not be such a bridezilla so we shall pretend like they don't bother me. Next move is making the favors and putting the cards together because I don't want to leave that for last minute. Especially because now is the time that we should be handing them out.
I really going to try and stay positive about everything so I don’t stress myself out or allow others to get to me. I’m ready for this wedding to happen and be over because quite frankly it’s draining me out. I'm tired of wedding planning and really just want to spend some time with family and friends and do nothing.

Best wishes for the Summer!