I have something to say

I waste so much of my time, energy, money on redundant possessions. I have nothing against enjoying things in life but the more I look at myself, the more I see of how useless my days have become (especially with my excuse to be “wedding planning”). I waste my little spare time reading about this useless thing which encourages me to buy that useless thing so I can look like some useless person. I’ve become someone who is constantly looking into fashion blogs, make-up tutorials, photography, recipe and DIY sort of things that I probably won’t ever come around to do.
I’m not downing myself for my interest, but I’m sad because of how much I focus on my interests rather than my education and prayers and blessings. I can’t say this is a fact but I sense that too much of high-end eye candy sort of things make us high maintenance because slowly other things start to look unworthy and cheap. Life never seems to be complete, and the shopping list is never over.

I wish I wrote more, it helps sort out thoughts!