Thanks olympics, you made me lonley!

Okay so everyone is going insane with this olympics thing. I'm not into it.
I can't even change my mind and pretend to like it because, I already bragged about how lame it was to be cheering for it.
Oh well, I can survive a loner night, while everyone else goes insane on their facebook/msn status with "GO CANADA GO"

Haha Just kidding, I don't care for it. EXCEPT the fact that I like getting excited for things. Like everything

Save money. Find a friend

I love spending time with people, who I click with. There is never a moment of akward or silence. Best of all, we don't have to go out or do things. We don't even have to wear nice clothes or look pretty. We don't have to buy presents. We don't have to fake like things. We can eat their food. We can unload.

They're my lucky numbers

We do stupid, selfish things, completely not taking into account anyone else's reactions. There are times in you get mad and say a lot of things you never really mean and later you realize how much your words could have hurt that person.
Only then do you realize who really truly knows you because they’re still around after all the mean and hurtful things you've said to them. They decide to ignore all the unkind things you've said in the past and they still stand by your side as if nothing ever went wrong. That’s what Family and “Friend” are.

There is one fact of life that is true in very religion, every faith, every culture and race. The fact being that life will end one day. So technically speaking we’re just here for some time, we can either live it up like Snoop Dog, or we can believe that there is more to life then just being born and dying. Every faith is different; some believe in after life, some don’t. Islam is based on nothing worldly, the main goal is after life. As humans we tend to forget that or we simply ignore it. If we made choices according to what pleased our Lord, I can assure you life would be easy. Easy because you decisions are not made on your own desires, they are made based on a higher power (makes sense?).

People assume that if you are from a good pious family, you automatically are a saint. Which is incorrect because for one, you might not like their life style and you prefer to live like Snoop Dog and two, you can easily live a double life (Cannot be watching Snoop Dog videos around parents, but just on laptop in bed when no one is around). No doubt that it is your benefit if you are blessed to be born in a family like that. Too bad that doesn’t just grant you a golden heaven ticket. It’s a personal matter; each person is questioned for their own actions. You can’t possibly blame another person for your own wrong doings.

Okay honestly, my point to this was meant to be based on marriage and spouses. I (some what?) got carried away. Girls always tend to rush into marriage because their friends are doing so. All the girls (exaggerating of course) always want the cool dude who listens and dresses like Snoop Dog.
Here is fact-of-the-day: these guys are not cool.

Again, not the point.

The point: When we (ladies) decided that we would like to be hitched. I think we look at things like money, career, how much of his looks resemble Brad Pitt and how “smooth” is he. Although these factors are important too, because without money/job he is unable to take care of you. If you are not attracted to him, well then that’s just a jar of pickles. These matters aren’t everything though; they help marriage go by easily rather then difficult. There is more to it though, so much so that it can sometimes be the most effective thing for your self. When thinking of spouse, there should be a deeper thinker, and intentions. We should want more, then just his looks, and money and how funny he is, or if he makes us tingle inside. There are factors, to want for one self. We should want our husband to be our garment for our soul, because marriage is half of our faith. We should want him to be righteous, and in the path of Allah. He should be strong on his prayers and motivate us to pray too. He should be a halal earner, unlike Snoop dog who goes on about how cool weed is, and lets his chains hang low. He should be modest, and not a show off. He should refer to Quran and the Sunnah for his answers and decisions and thank Allah for all that he is blessed with. He should control his words and anger for the sake of Allah. Someone like that would honor his wife and protects her and guide his wife for the better. We might not get it all, but we should desire it. The rest is in the hands of God.

You know what my problem is? I start to write something and then I get bored of it or I don’t know how to put my thoughts into words. Hey hey…I never said I was a writer.

Oh no. It's ugly

This is based on my own judgment and opinion. I’m sure some girls in Hollywood would adore it. I was looking for some handbags to make my eyes happy , and I came across some really ugly ones and I thought… seriously?!

I’m sure there is some beauty to it somewhere in someone’s eyes. As for myself…No thanks!

1) Louis Vuitton. The best part about this bag is its price. $52,000.00. Word!

2) By Fergie - $17,000 for dice around my shoulder?

3) Prada blue - $1295

4) Another darling by Prada.

5) Louis Vuitton - $967. Maybe some people like the extra detail
6) Coco Channel - $800
7) Its by some brand called “Luisaviaroma”. That is when I searched “hot shoulder bags” on google. Google has never failed me until the day it showed me this. Price: $865

No one can love me better

You live your life feeling content. You feel mature and stable as if you have seen all there was to be seen. You aren’t seeking for answers or new ideas. Then from somewhere, out of nowhere something new jumps out on you. Sometimes you re-hear things which you have heard a million times before from many people. But sometimes hearing it or seeing it one more time just does something to you. It changes your life, it changes the way you think or view the world and people. That’s how people change I assume. It’s been two years since I’ve felt that change within myself and I feel like I was lucky or I was saved. It was highly possible for me to live a astray life because that was my direction and path. So thank you for coming into my life and showing me new ways. Better ways. I hope I don’t lose myself again because this world is just so tempting. Sin is so tempting.

Actually it isn’t really about understanding, it’s about listening. Listening with full devotion and then concentrating on what was said. I remember that at night time, I used to think about what useful things people had said to me through out the day. I had room mates, and we used to share deep conversations and I learnt so much from those. Two years later, I can say that maybe there is hope for me to become a good person. When I say good person, I mean from the heart. It’s about doing the right thing when I’m alone or in company. That’s true faith. For the people that are born to be righteous, lucky you.

I'm blessed to have you in my life.

They aren’t mental

“I thought space aliens were after me. I didn’t dare leave my room and covered all my windows with aluminum foil to keep them out. I refused to eat because I thought the food was poisoned.”

Schizophrenia (pronounced like SKITZ-ZOphrenia) is a growing disease in our society. In North America, 1 out of 100 people are expected to develop Schizophrenia. Men tend to be diagnosed in their teens, while woman, the outset is usually few later. Many people aren’t aware of what it’s really about, so they assume the person is just crazy, like those hobo’s you meet in Down Town. Partly that’s true; many of those “hobo’s” are diagnosed with schizophrenia. Basically people who have schizophrenia have hallucinations. They see and hear things which are not in existence. People with schizophrenia may have episodes (hallucinations) and their family might not even know. I mean really think about it, if your sister tells you about a new friend at school, it won’t cross your mind that it’s imaginary. It isn’t anything out of the ordinary, except these episodes get worst over time. Schizophrenia develops gradually overtime. At first one might began to lose interest in their usual pursuit and withdraw from friends and family. Sometimes other people see that as stress or depression. They prefer to be alone and cannot concentrate well on their usual daily things. They may also become intensely preoccupied with religion or philosophy (this doesn’t have to happen to everyone, but its likely to). This period can last for weeks, months, sometimes a year or two. After that, they begin to have active delusions, hallucinations, marked distortions in thinking and disturbances in behaviour and feelings. It’s all downhill from there; the symptoms just get worst as time goes by. They become suspicious of everything; they don’t trust people or things. They feel like a victim, as though everyone is out to get them. They stop caring for their health and personal hygiene.
Some lucky people with schizophrenia might not have an episode for years and live a completely normal life. Some (even luckier) people might only have few episodes their whole life, and they might not even know they had it. Of course people who have schizophrenia have medication, which helps stop the hallucinations and it numbs their mind. The medication makes them sleep all the time and they can never concentrate, their brain takes awhile to process things.
There is a bigger picture to this though; the person who has schizophrenia is one issue. Their surroundings are another. I don’t think anyone will truly ever understand how a person can be normal without being….well normal. People with schizophrenia usually lose their friends and family because they become difficult to handle. Friends and Family become frustrated with one who has schizophrenia because at one point, they just can’t handle it anymore. I try to think about, what it would be like to see things which didn’t exist. I mean I could be going to school everyday, talking to tons of people, attending lectures with a class full of students and a professor and all this could be just in my mind. People with schizophrenia can physically feel everything they see. For example, if they see that they have been stabbed, they can see and feel the blood on their body.

This is making my head pound. Trust me, writing the word s c h i z o p h r e n i a 30 times (without misspelling it) can do that to a person.

Those broken hearts.

When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. When you're over the old affection and you realize that you can live without your first so-called love, you learn. You see that the world doesn't end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go. You learn what real love is, and you begin to see that one friend who really cares is better than a hundred friends who don't. You learn that you can be strong, take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears. But when you're at the end of your rope, and you're ready to jump off that ledge, remember that heartaches fades, pain subsides, and though life seems at times too tough to handle, it's also too precious a gift to waste. Keep on living, never give up, and remember: As you grow, you learn.

I hate everything

I hate the way my picture looks blurry.